a sudden of morose overwhelmed me.

and i was carrying it for almost my whole day.

i'm sorry. i really am.

i felt so bad. so bad. indescribably bad.

so bad till i slept almost the whole day throughout

to stop myself from thinking bout it.

but what's worse? images of it still appeared in my dreams!

i kept persuading myself that things arent the way i'm thinking

but i still cant talk myself out of it.

oh dear. this is the first time i'm feeling so down.

i thought it through. and i made a promise to myself.

no more next time.

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sorry pauline.