ARGH.....!!!!!!

just what the hell is going on!!!

hell i really hate this.

i tend to lose my temper darn easily these days.

cant control it. sharks

i'm really sorry to those out there whom i've been treating

coldly or raised my voice at.

i'm really sorry.

but i'm just so frustrated.

my appearance, my dumbness, my retardness, stupidity,

me being so indecisive, so dull and boring.

argh. i really hate myself.

think i'm really undergoing some minor depression.

soon it'll worsen.

something's really wrong with me.

been thinking alot.

fretting and worrying things that i dont really know either.

i really have no idea what i'm fretting and worrying abt.

sigh..

there's really nothing i can think of that's a happy thing.

my head aching again.

something just happened again.

mum and sisters rushed over.

just what the hell is wrong with everything.

nothing seems to be going well for me, family.

='(

today's a bad day.

yup. my com's up. but not totally well.

got naggings from mum, sis... for not getting it done at once.

i know nothing bout com.

ya ok it's my fault.

my dumbness once more.

didnt know i'd have to tell them all problems the com's creating.

sis cant make it tmr for repair.

looks like i can only get it done like next week.

ok shall end.

been crying when i'm alone

yet not being able to cry out loud.

i dont want ppl to worry for me.

oh wait. does anyone care bout me? nvm

i'll have to put up a stupid happy nothing's going wrong face

upon facing them.

like what the hell.. it's really a torture.