alright. today shall mark the end of the semestral exams.

i'm back. to the study-free state.

today's supposed to be a happy one

last paper.

but apparently it doesnt seemed to befall on me.

the paper was a really difficult one.

dampened my mood for the rest of the day.

sharks.

i just hope for a pass please.

was really upset and angry.

*sighs* well well..

haven really been sleeping well throughout the exam period.

slept a total of less than 20 in six days??

so tired.

hair loss problem faced.

due to stress? or some illness??

aint sure.

i cant let this go on.

i dont wanna become botak!

haix

anyway, today's juan's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again JUAN!! =D

hope you've enjoyed the day spent with all of us yea?

with loads of fun and laughters..(:

alright. so sleepy. got to turn in..

NIGHTS!!

fallen deeper. harder.

so hard that it hurts.

so many things happened lately.

i'm not feeling any better.

there are certain things in which it's simply beyond my control.

not that i want it to turn out that way.

things just dont go well when one is down.

woke up in the morning.

quarrelings and rebuttals blasted my ears.

mum and sis raised their voices.

sisters ranted at each other.

quarreling over the most trivial matter.

i wont deny i'm involved too.

back in school.

school was fine cos i have my friends.

they never fail to cheer me up.

thanks ppl.

but that didnt last long.

i'm back to square one.

troubles at home.

troubles with school work.

and so on.

went to bedok carrying a headache.

had to buy my sis's stuff.

was lost in the midst of everything there.

i couldnt find my way.

sharper pain in my head.

found my way at last. got everything.

went home.

i need some peace.

peace in my mind, peace in my heart.

peace in my ears. just peace.

i'm afraid i cant hold on much longer.

and my head still hurts.

damn.. darn sad.

bound to flunk my aap practical.

i knew how to do not more than five questions.

was really feeling low..

not really in the mood to do anyth.

and i'm darn stressed.

i know i had to study but i really dont feel like.

i'm really going crazy..

but i suppose none saw it through.

i'm really really not feeling good.

='(

drown in tears

if only anyone could understand.

aiyo aiyo aiyo

die die die.

less than ten days to exams!!

and i haven started revision!!

oh no oh no.

how how how..

cham cham cham..

jialat jialat jialat.

haix haix haix

stress stress stress!

can die sia..

just kill me man!

arghh.

-.-

oh btw.. took a few photos lately.

maybe not a few..

hahah.

many..

no time to upload.. lol

next day when i'm free perhaps..

but well.. my sis, cheng has actually uploaded it in her blog alr..

check it out there then!!

=)

ok.. it's raining out there super heavily now.

fortunately i'm home alr.

sian. exams are like dunno how many days away.

and i've yet touched my notes.

i shall see how i die then.

haix

lack of discipline i guess.

tend to get distracted easily..

hmmm.. there's sth i've been pondering about lately.

well.. whatever it is.

i hope i didnt got it spot on or whatever.

shall anticipate.

hmmm.. aiyo.. so many things happened lately.

and it seems to be getting out of hand somehow..

it's quite bad to see it becomes like that.

hmmm..

kk.. shall end here.

take care ppl.

i'm going to be quite busy lately.

guess i'll not post until the exams are officially over.

well maybe i will still. lol

depends. hahaha

okok.. gtg bye!! =)

i hope it aint is a lie. white lie or whatever color it is

woke up with a pair of swollen eyes this morning.

had to put on specs instead for school.

anyway, thanks for the consolation ytd night, sisters.

ytd was the worst day ever.

dirtied my favourite top,

spoilt my favourite sippers,

computer kena virus cos i clicked open a file a friend sent.

i was such a stupid idiot dumb gullible freak.

people send and i just open it w/o even asking what's that beforehand.

what's worse? i might have even got other people into trouble.

i'm really sorry yar.

i was right.

indeed one day my downfall would be due to my stupidity.

can i be a lil smarter for goodness sake??!

i dont ask for more, just a lil smarter will do.

i dont and cant blame anyone.

i can only blame myself.

alright. that was ytd.

nothing went really well today either.

no tickets for zhang dong liang's concert.

didnt went out with my friends.

i chose to be alone for the rest of the day instead.

roamed around, shopped around.

i dont suppose this inane me here deserves to be paid attention to.

alright, enough said.

tmr's the nation's birthday.

happy birthday singapore

i really dun uds why it's so coincidental. arghh

i dont think i can hold on much longer.

i cant take it anymore!! grrr

pictures pictures before i go to sleep! =)

nights!!

hohoho.. oh.. it's been quite some time since i last blogged.

hahah

hmmm.. nothing much happened lately.

life's as usual..

oh dear.. exams are round the corner..

in three weeks' time.

gotta start revision soon..

hmmm.. but can i?? lol

i dont think i have that much of a disipline. haha

well well.. will try though..

hmmm.. to those who are experiencing bad stuff lately,

dont be too affected yar.. get on with life! heck care them! =)

ohh.. national day's coming!

hmmm.. should we get all red and white on that day?? haha

meant the clothings. lol

shall suggest. lol

kk gotta turn in soon.

lesson's early tmr.

nights!! =)

wah sian..

i cant bring myself to be angry.

hell.. think i'm really weird.

like when ppl says you're fat or sth?

and keeps saying that?

wont be happy right?

i was really unhappy and rather pissed.

but i just cant show it on my face. argh..

what a weirdo am i.

and then.. i reached home showing attitudes to others.

like mum. and perhaps dad.

i dunno why.

think they should have realised it too.

gosh.. i hate myself.

mood swings?? man.. hate it.

alright. i bring nothing but trouble.

sian.

a good-for-nothing weirdo.

haix

ok.. i really need to relieve myself..

definitely not referring to the toilet part.

here's feeling so bottled up.

by what i dunno.. just feel so "filled" inside me.

feel like letting it all out..

hmmm.. perhaps walking by the beach would help a little..

hmm.. might consider.. yup yup

oh.. speaking bout it.. hmm..

hahaha!

nvm. lol

some things i should be angry at but i'm not.

not a nice thing though

but yet i'm kinda ridiculed at..

(ahh.. yes.. you.. if you're reading this. haha)

but it's ok la.. it doesnt really affect me alot.

hmmm. ok i dunno what is it again.

perhaps it's me.

haix

ok shall not move on. else ppl will say i'm depressed or what again.

lol

i'm not lah really. hahah

dont think depression will ever occur to me.

know why?

hahaha

cos i cheer up easily.

cheerful person mah.. cant help.

it's an inborn thingy. it's in the genes.. LOL!!

alright. craps.. haha

kk

cheer up! to those who are unhappy and

get well soon! for those who are ill =)