♥ khim 琴 khimminology ♥

2008-11-26T07:57:00.000-08:00

ahh stupid. in the end i'm still back to using this.

but i dont reckon any soul would be reading it.

GOOD! GREAT! AWESOME!

it will all be for my eyes then!

i shall vent everything here.

i hate it when i blog and people keep probing.

hello. i have my reasons to blog.

so just read, try to understand and quit probing!

i dont wish to say cos it's regarding you! dumb dumb.

i dont want to make it ugly so i have no choice but to i kept it from you.

yeah. green-eyed am i, at how you still care this someone so much.

what business has it got to do with you when somebody tries to befriend her.

oh well. who knows. you might be green-eyed too.

sometimes i would ask myself.

am i stupid or what.

she's better in every ways. why me.

ahhh. whatever.

perhaps i should start not to care so much.

and gradually, we'll see how it goes and all.

what i thought it was, is no longer what it is i reckon.

ahh man. i'm feeling damn upset.

but no worries. no more tears i swear.

2008-03-20T21:18:00.000-07:00

hey people!! i've moved!! (:

http://khimmykhim.livejournal.com/

sorry for the trouble yah hahaha
please relink me! THANKS!! =D

hmmm i'm not deleting this blog though.
hahah memories, reminiscence(:

2008-03-19T01:05:00.000-07:00

omg i'm super lethargic.
worked close to 14hours straight today.
supposedly working from 2pm to 9pm.
was called last minute to work at 9am
ended work at almost 11pm.
okay i'm feeling a little sore at my throat.

think i'm falling sick soon. =(

hardly had enough sleep for the past few days.

god. tired like hell.

oh btw. aili came over for an interview.

looking forward to working with her!

hahahah

hmmm but i felt quite bad today.

hahah cos i think she waited quite long.

was rather busy today. fully packed time table =(

oh one more thing to mention.

hahah i just realised that doc angela is quite a nice person haha

i'm growing to like her(:

oh and she's got a "khim" in her name too.

no wonder she gave a rather weird look when she first heard my name.

hahahah(:

alright. got to sleep. too tired to continue.

shall update on my chalet happenings soon with pictures! (:

night!

2008-03-15T17:13:00.000-07:00

a sudden of morose overwhelmed me.

and i was carrying it for almost my whole day.

i'm sorry. i really am.

i felt so bad. so bad. indescribably bad.

so bad till i slept almost the whole day throughout

to stop myself from thinking bout it.

but what's worse? images of it still appeared in my dreams!

i kept persuading myself that things arent the way i'm thinking

but i still cant talk myself out of it.

oh dear. this is the first time i'm feeling so down.

i thought it through. and i made a promise to myself.

no more next time.

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sorry pauline.

2008-03-15T01:48:00.000-07:00

okay doctor angela is not very friendly i can say.

she's around her twenties.

so young can! i was shocked when i learned she was doctor angela.

i have no idea what got over me today but i was especially clumsy today.

too afraid i guess.

hmmm i have to see her again on sunday.

bless me.

okay saturday means off day.

no company

so i guess i'll just stay home and read the storybook i borrowed.

boring day i suppose. =(

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oh and sorry dear i didnt tell you earlier. my fault. sorry.

nvm cos you're having yours too. on saturday(:

okay i'm super tired now.

i dont know why. sleeping time..

2008-03-14T01:16:00.000-07:00

tomorrow's Doctor Angela

omg i'm scared.

hope she's a nice person.

*fingers crossed*

okay job's so far so good.

but stressed at the same time.

i'm still adapting to it.

2008-03-13T00:38:00.000-07:00

okay i'm super duper ultra extremely uber immensely dreadfully

truly terribly inordinately VERY sad and pissed off now.

why did i got 2.65 the last sem???

omg it really pulled me like a HELL LOT!

there goes me hitting my three.

freak siah. i very bu kan yuan ahh!!

wah damn sian. serious.

oh freak oh freak oh freak.

omg i feel like crying like hell now.

aRgHHH

bad bad bad

='(

well perhaps i should look at the brighter side.

well at least this sem i managed to improve.

by around 0.2

hope i can excel in the next sem.

final two sems are left for me to really buck up.

i have to. by hook or by crook.

2008-03-11T23:58:00.000-07:00

oOo was too late when i got home yesterday.

plus the fact that i've got work today do i didnt blog.

anyway anyway let's talk a lil about it(:

hmmm no work yesterday so went out with dear.

oh and his family(:

went fishing ehhh or rather prawning. hahah

i caught only two lol

and look at the amount i was asked to bring home!

there are like 30plus to 40 of them? (picture)

hoho that's alot! (:

some are still alive and kicking!!

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the ohmygod-so-many of them, some fat some skinny(:

close up!

the super hyper one isolated!

the two fat ones! one with an extremely long and big kiiap kiiap hahah
pincer i meant(:

the poor cooked ones.. so chubby. hahah
sorry you poor things but anyway, thanks for being so yummy(: alright that's pretty bad a thing to mention. lol

okok so that was yesterday.

ate durians yesterday, ate durians today too. hahah(:

alright that's all(: goodbye.

and it sets me to thinking again. i'm getting a lil tired. i'm sure you do too.

2008-03-09T23:53:00.000-07:00

didnt had time to blog yesterday
had to go to bed early due to morning shift today
alright so these were some of the happenings yesterday.
went parkway with weic, bought badminton rackets.
there was a cover containing two rackets in it.
one for us and the other was cousin desmond's.
note: there was only ONE cover.
mum, sis and i almost had a heated argument over that cover.
just because i decided to let my cousin have that cover.
my god can? it's just a cover for goodness sake.
i dont see the point in dwelling and yacking over just a cover.
alright. my fault, i'm to blame.
okay that night, youngest sis and i quarrelled too.
but over something else.
i know it was my wrong. i supposed it was because of that earlier matter.
i had to vent my anger on somebody i guess.
i was sorry after realising it. anyway,
that same stupid night, my dad saw me drying my hair
and he kinda nagged at me.
telling me not to wash my hair in the night and blah blahh.
i've always been washing my hair at night and of all days he chose to say me that night.
okay everybody in the family seemed against me that night.
i know they all sounded like some no big deal businesses but i was seriously down on mood that day
and BAAM! they just worsen it.
alright. enough of it. so that was yesterday.
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today, my first day at work.
four hours and i witnessed so many things that could happen in that small room behind the doors.
extracting of teeth, crown preparation, impression, root canal treatment, root field, postcore..
as i watched, i tried to pick up things as well.
observed how assistants assist, how the doctor worked on the procedures,
knowing the different usages of the many instruments for different approaches
wow. that's really quite too much for me to take in for just the first day. hahah
i felt so small there. hahah
anyway, in the days to come, i'll have to jia you! hahah(:

a random picture to sign off. Goodbye(:

2008-03-07T04:19:00.000-08:00

another day at home! =(

okay this is uber boring.

but fear not!! i found a job!!

hahahah

the pay's not high. but it's okay.

so long as i like it heehee

futhermore it's part-time!

what more can i ask for?!

it's more than enough hahahah

cos i've been looking for a part-time, not full-time.

an assistant in a dental clinic.

hoho cool huh. LOL (:

went for the interview yesterday

received their call today!

the first question the dentist ask during the interview was:

are you afraid of blood??

and of cos, i said no! hahaha

i'm starting work this sunday(:

yeah boredom's over man! hahahah

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watched "the water horse" yesterday.

gosh it's really nice. worth the watch!(:

go watch go watch people! hahah

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hmmm i suppose reading stuff without music is a chore to some ppl

so i added music to my blog! to cater to them. hahah(:

okay that's all for today.

wish me luck on sunday! lol

2008-03-05T17:07:00.000-08:00

boohoo boring day. =(

let me share how i spent today.

well at least up till now..

alright. i started off the day waking up at one pm.

yup. one. that's pretty late i know. hahah

then when sis and i were almost ready to get out of the house,

it was pouring out there.

okay great. it spoilt the whole of our moods and so we stayed home.

made lunch ourselves at home.

ok nothing nice actually.

just maggie mee with addition of enoki and hotdogs.

worked on sudoku after.

one puzzle and it made me so pekchek. i gave up. haha

and now. i'm on the com.

well well. hopefully it doesn't rain later on.

might head out. (:

okayokay think i should kill some time on wahjong-ing

till i move on to my next attempt on getting out of the house.

tata

2008-03-01T00:48:00.000-08:00

alright some of my narcissistic photos. hahah(:

ahh. my room's so messy!!

ookee.. thats.all

2008-02-29T15:56:00.000-08:00

thanks. i'm f*king pissed now.

perhaps i should just freaking shut up.

or just not do anything to preserve my "angellic" image in your eyes.

yeah angellic. i know i'm not at all. but whatever.

i'm freaking not liking this at all.

back off.

2008-02-26T02:22:00.000-08:00

oh meee god!!

this day has finally arrived!!

EXAMS ARE OVER!! WOOHOO!!!

didnt really had ample sleeps for the past so many days.

right now i'm still feeling kinda dizzy while typing.

anyway anyway.

updates updates!

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the day before was the 24th of feb.

one year we've been!

fast huh. lol

anyway love the present lots.

the hardwork and stuff i can see.

it's not easy i know. hahah thanks!! =D

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yesterday was the day of the last paper as well as alden's bday.

eight of us went out to celebrate his bday.

went kenny rogers at suntec and got ourselves

SO MUCH food that we got to play the number code game to finish ALL the food.

hahah it was quite fun lah. haha

then after, we did something quite foolish yet fun.

we went to the fountain of wealth and walked round it 3times

with our hands touching the water and making wishes as we moved.

hahahah funny experience.

it felt as though we were some stupid idiots right in the middle of nowhere.

LOL but i didnt regret doing so! hahaha =)

went marina sq's archade after that and then we went our separate ways.

there were only four of us left behind to think of where to hangout then.

decided on going over to liwei's place for some mahjong session.. haha

was midnight when i got home. yawns*

tired tired tired.

i need a LONG sleep badly.

dark rings are surfacing.

alrighty! that's all for the day!

i'm turning in! hahah =)

2008-02-20T01:33:00.000-08:00

he's too much. i know.

ignore him, forgo his words.

assemble your feelings, bestir my girl.

you will get out of all these shit for sure.

you and i know he has his reasons for this.

we both know he meant no harm, he cares.

look at things from the positive side.

he probably doesnt want you to suffer yonder.

grit your teeth and bear with it. be strong. and all shall be over soon.

what's for us shall be for us.

what's not shall be not.

we'll see.

no one knows. it's all destined if one believes.

brace up! and good luck! =)

to her: chill and cheer up! smile! you've got the sweetest smile ever! =)

*envies*

2008-02-16T01:55:00.000-08:00

was too busy to upload these days

pardon me.

hahah

hmmm didnt really went into my itinerary on CNY here's a quick description.

alright.

first day: took dunno how many hours to doll up ourselves

(due to the insufficient number of mirrors at home,we took turns to use the mirror) hahah

headed to grandma's house after which.

then the yearly routine. bai nian, take angbaos, gamble, eat. standard. haha

i'm so glad alot of my relatives went this year. gary went too. (:

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okay on to the next day: went to my father's side of my relative's house.

hmmm the routine here every year is slightly different from the previous one. lol

bai nian, angbaos, eat, watch tv, home. hahah

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third day: met up with liwei, jiahui and aaron

together, we headed over to xiner's house. kc was alr there(:

stayed there for quite some time then all six of us went to our next station.

nicholas's house! haha

hate and played "no money, play for fun" mahjong there. hahahoh

oh. one more thing.. the food was great. credit goes to his mum! thanks!

well i think nic helped too. so hahah thanks nic! (:

alright then the seven of us moved on to the next station: aaron's!

cosy cosy kind of apartment. (condo mah!) hahahah

pretty bathroom he's got!! (:

after aaron's. we parted. it was late evening alr.

xiner went to her relative's house,

i went to gary's,

the rest went to jiahui's.had dinner at his place(:

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alright. that's quite it.

having another round of steamboat this coming mon at grandma's place. =)
more pics uploaded! =)

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2008-02-10T17:07:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! =D

CNY photos!!

hmm took quite some time to upload those though.

alright that's pretty much all.

didnt take alot of photos.

esp. those with my friends!!! -.-

anyway anyway.

i had fun. =)

now. back to the books..

boring life once again.

tata

2008-02-02T02:05:00.000-08:00

oOoo siah lah. so long never blog already..

well guess no one reads anyway. lol

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anyway anyway

went out with kaiwen, cat and her bf(qian) today

watched movie: 27 dresses

interesting!

hahahah nice one! worth the watch yeah.. =)

went shopping after.

didnt really bought alot of things.

well just a pair of earrings to be exact.

hahah

went for dinner then headed home.

ah ah

not yet for kw and myself though. lol

well since we live around the same vicinity,

and since we were kinda thirsty,

we popped by a convenience store and bought ourselves drinks.

then went on to a bus stop, settled down and started chatting.

from 9plus to perhaps around 11??

hahah that was long!

but enjoyed it.

it's been so long we did this..

hahah

one day we shall get jing to join us too. lol

miss her! hahah (:

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omg lunar new year's coming!!

cant wait for it to come man! lol

i'm gonna make sure i present myself well in front of everybody!

lol cant wait cant wait!! woohoo! hahahah

alrighty.. i'm off! =D

hmm how coincidental..

well well.

2008-01-24T21:02:00.000-08:00

i'm not in the best of mood today.

or should i say i'm in the worst of mood today.

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everyone's crying. for different reasons.

mum cried for dad's crude words against sister,

forbiding her to continue her studies.

sister cried cos of her results and dad's words.

me? a mixture. nvm.

i fear, at the thought of losing you.

but i know one day i'll have to face it.

2008-01-22T20:19:00.000-08:00

stupid stupid stupid!!!

sickening sHit.

the pseudo-lian is darn pissed now.

so pEk cHek.

aSs siah.

damn. so many things to be done.

this is like so freaking idiotic can!

five freehand drawings on hold,

ahDis and ACM asignments,

quizzes coming up,

practical tests...

this is SO sHity!!

i'm really stressed up.

until i got sO many pimples on my face.

damn!

so ugly can!

ARGH..

pEk cHek pEk cHek ahh!

ARGHH

2008-01-19T00:38:00.000-08:00

yooohooo! =D

hmm was really busy these days.

busy with captain's ball matches and quizzes.

monday was practice for captain's ball.

and due to the really out of touch exercise,

i had pretty bad muscleaches all over me the next day.

right from my shoulder all the way to my feet.

it was then the matches on wed.

i was still aching but hung on.

managed to pull through three matches.

and we won all three!! hahah

we had a one day rest after which.

but this one day of "rest" was solely reserved for quiz preparations.

i had to sit for three quizzes on fri.

alright. and there it was today when it all ended this busy week,

the quizzes as well as the matches.

hmmm quizzes were alright.

as for the match..

hmmm we were thrashed luhh. =(

yup we lost. they were too strong for us i guess.

but we tried our best! hahah =)

so it doesnt matter.

shall try again next year??! lol

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siahh lahh

this is really cute and funny. lol

kewee, hancheng, huiyi, gary and i went opp sch after the match for dinner.

hmmm there's actually a purpose for doing so..

and that is to watch the last second episode of the Golden path

at the coffeeshop!! hahahah

ooO talking bout it.. kaijie really deserves a bad time serious.

he's really a disgrace to society. go to hell soon man! hahahah

next mon last epi! must watch must watch!! lol

alright. i'm tired after a long day.

shall turn in soon.

all the best for the test tmr boy! =)

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my gracilis hurts!!! ARGHH

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hmmm sometimes i really envy them. how i wish we were closer.

2008-01-14T01:46:00.000-08:00

hohoho wow looking back,
it's been some time since i last blogged hahah
sorry! been working on some stuff.

and that's my freehand drawing homework!
and i'm really glad cos i'm finally finished with my 101!!
FINALLY CAN?!!
my god.. that was really tedious.

took like dont know how many days to do it can!

but of cos in between i took breaks lahh. LOL

and that's the price i have to pay for slacking. hahah

if not it would have already been done long ago.. lol

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hahah my 101!!

nice nice?? lol

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hmm went pp today with sis.

ooo i bought DIY hair dye! lol

but it's not applied to the hair yet.

cos it was rather late when we reached home.

some other time perhaps.. (:

omg i'm so worried how it'll look like after the dye.

i bought platinum blonde. LOL

hopefully it turns out well.. =)

ooo and and i'm so happy today. LOL

hmm this is kinda mean but i still want to say this badly!

someone actually said i looked younger than my sister!!

hohohoh

but.. i was still told that i looked like the age of twenty. ='( boohooo

well well nvm nvm.

i'm born with it. cant do anything to it can i? hahah

so be it then. (:

alrighty.. following up are some of the pictures we took today! =D

kay kay that's all for today. tata =)

it cant be me for god's sake. that's really too much of a thinking. knock it off dudette. shoo!!

2008-01-06T01:28:00.000-08:00

today's aunt's birthday.

yesterday was cousin's birthday.

mother and daughter.

hahah so nice..

can celebrate together. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to both!!! =D

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well. went parkway to do some drawing today.

but in the end.. it wasn't completed.

it was as though nothing came out of it.

tell me. how can one actually draw a moving object?

my god. it aint easy can?!

gosh how am i suppose to draw it

and we were actually told to draw two?

my god.

and bloody hell.. there's test on monday.

freak siah..

arghhh

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heard artise mcKing died.

and his cause of death is still unknown.

one life's gone like that.

how vulnerable.

life is just so vulnerable.

well. it's all fated i guess.

rest in peace.

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been pondering deep these whiles.

many questions came across.

have i been the one all along i wonder.

somehow there wasnt any reasoning till now that i was.

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well well.

i really got to do something bout my usual habits.

cos i'm getting really upset and pissed and all. intimidated too? yup.

everyone around is so much better.

and i'm not good in a single thing. no fair. -.-

pick one and she'll just put me down flat. and i mean FLAT.

my new year resolution??

>> to get myself into a better condition i swear.

till then...

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alright. got to do my 101 drawing now.

crazy. it's 101! my god.

and till now so far..

i only did SIX.

good game.. -.-

wish me all the best.

off now. bye

2008-01-03T23:32:00.000-08:00

alrightyy

here to post again (:

hmmm

went to school for lab today for like only 20mins??!

stupid right.

we just stood there looking at our cher demonstrate stuff.

in the end there isn't any results for our southern blot. -.-

and we have to like find out all sorts of possible causes to it. -.-

well well.. nvm

slacked around in sch for awhile before heading home

(the tree family was really darn funny can?! LOL)

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went out after home to meet the rest to celebrate KC's birthday. (:

ate at sakae sushi, its buffet!

and gosh. we really ate ALOT.

until at the end of everything all of us were like SO bloated.

some of us even found it difficult to stand straight or walk!

hahahah

had fun though. ate and talked lots of crap

laughed so loudly like nobody's business esp you-know-who. LOL!!

hahaha ok that was mean. lol sorry jia hui. oops! HAHAHAH

no offence lahhh lol

oh and hahah there was a point where we still left like quite a no. of sushi

then you know what??

we played the guess no. game. who kena, who shall eat. LOL

that was fun.. LOL i kena twice though. LOL

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well well below are pictures we took today in the toilet(girls). hahah

juan, xin er, jia hui and myself! =D

oh that's me. the vain vain me. hahahah

see that person in the reflection??

she took me in this pose...

thanks ahh jia hui. LOL (:

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yup yup so that's all for today hahah (:

happy birthday kc!

and thank you girls for today(:

had fun! =D

2008-01-01T23:43:00.000-08:00

ok yesterday was the last day of 2007

i didnt manage to post ytd.

was late and really tired when i got home.

alright school officially started ytd

went to school for two plus hours

got back my AHDis paper

ehh.. it was a just pass.

well. i'm rather contented though. (:

a pass was all i hope for. hahah

hmm went out after which with gary and friends.

a double date? hahahah

bowling, dinner at han river and settling down by the changi beach were our activities for the day

bowling was fun.. eh. i didnt really did played well though haha,

dinner was fine, quite nice..

and it was really a nice place settling down chatting by the really windy changi beach

the wind hardly ceased!

and it was really cool when you raise your head and picture those huge planes flying just directly over your head

cool cool (:

oh and it was rather populated there

families building up tents and spending the night there.

sweet sweet

to my surprise, most families were malays!

so cool right.

i envy them cos they are always so ever bonded.

anyway anyway

that was how i spent the last day of 2007!

enjoyed myself (:

it's 2008 now.

a brand new start

a brand new beginning.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! =D

kelly, derek, gary and myself (:

2007-12-30T23:53:00.000-08:00

found this cute

took this at parkway ytd (:

mickey, minnie, donald

went expo today.

with grandma, mummy and cousin (:

bought ALOT of stuff from the metro sales!!

hahah

mummy and i

smile! =)
we are the long hair freaks! hahahah

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oh oh and there was this vintage cars exhibition in hall 6
below are some pictures!!
enjoy! (:

hahah of them all i like the fourth the most! hahah
ohh. fyi, each of them worth like up to 6-7 digits!! wow

took these following photos ytd at grandma's house (:

random random

youngest sis and i ♥muacks

ehhh. sis took this crazy me hahah

笑笑!! =)

heeheehahahhohoh

sad to say i lost my favourite gold bangle.

the other time was the silver star ring =(

2007-12-29T14:48:00.000-08:00

oh my god

today is really a i-dunno-how-to-describe day.

alright.

before i talk into it.

i have something to share.

i find it weird you see.

hahah

for three consecutive days,

i've been waking up at around 1:13pm

and it's the same time throughout the three days

from what the clock in my room reflects to me.

well apart from it i know i woke up kinda late. hahah

that spells holidays isnt it?

lol that one doesnt have to wake up early?

hahah

well well my philosophy (:

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alright back to today.

hmmm.

went polyclinics at alj with gary today.

went for tetanus jab and blood test for hep B

for those wondering why this is done so,

we're actually told to have two jabs, tetanus and hep B by the school.

ala.. lab work and animal dealing that's why -.-

and we have to pay ourselves -.- ~dreaded

alright

tetanus was injected on the left arm,

and blood drawn from the right hand.

numbness..

felt as though both arms do not exist at all.

it still hurts a little now as i'm typing. =(

oh no. i have to admit injection aint fun at all.

so please...

may the results indicate that there's still sufficient antibody titre

for hep B in us so that we can do away with the hep B jab...

hahah hopefully.

i wouldnt wish for another round of it.

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ohh and.. today's lih jing birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIH JING!!! =D

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alright

guess that's all for today. (:

oh btw, it's way past twelve now.

so those 'todays' i mentioned above,

are actually 28th dec, not 29 (:

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envy envy...... how i wish i am one too. ):

2007-12-25T03:25:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!! =D

alright. today's post's gonna be quite a lengthy one. hahah

bear with it! lol

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on the 22nd, there was an AF23 christmas gathering

over at sherry's house (:

the dinner was great, watched hairspray

ate a logcake evonne brought

her mum made it!

it was really nice and yummy! hahah

the logcake evonne's mum made! (:

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after which we had our exchange presents session!

hahah

i got chocolates!! (:

alright. then it was already quite late.

those had to go home went home.

the rest who're still not going home yet went out.

i was one of them.

there were eight of us altogether

went for alcohol. (:

sherry, desmond and i went home after that.

the rest went for night movie. hahah

---

then on the 24th, a few of us were invited over to jh's house

ehh. it's actually her family dinner

hahah

helped out preparations for dinner

ehhh i didnt really did much though.

hahah the only thing i did was just cutting the mushrooms

hahah i'm just so not into cooking

and staying long in the kitchen is just so not khimmy. lol

i'm only good at eating. hahah a glutton am i.

hmmm

a sumptuous dinner we had

there were fingerfoods, spaghetti, turkey, chicken, ham, soup.

oh! aiyah just remembered.. i didnt get to taste the soup!!

hahah forgot siah.

LOL

oh we ate logcake too.

so many people came.

hahaha most were jh's relatives.

lively scenario(:

hahah

juan, xin er, jh's sis and myself played board game, PAYDAY after dinner

kc was the banker lol

i was the ultimate winner! the richest! LOL!!

well if only it's reflected in the real life. HAHAH

alright. that would never happen i know. lol

if only it was that easy. haha

after which jh and peeps and posche sent me to the bus stop.

hahah i was the only one who went home.

the rest went back and spent the night over at her place. (:

posche's so cute!!

ehh pardon me.

i dont really know the exact spelling of her name. lol

the blur blur her. haha so cute!!

us at the void deck! (:
---
oh and! hahah i received quite a no. of presents!
hahah so happy! =D

thanks for the three STAR rings! love 'em! -lost one though ='(

alright that's for the day. thanks for the patience! (:

MERRY CHRISTMAS ONCE AGAIN!!! =D =D

2007-12-20T23:43:00.000-08:00

here am i posting again!!

hohoho

3 consecutive days!

hahahok that's lame.

alright alright.

shall move on(:

---

today's GRANDMA'S BIRTHDAY!!生日快乐!! (:

went over to grandma's house this afternoon,

got together with cousins. had fun.. (:

had steamboat! hahah

oh! that's her bday cake!!
yummy!

a birthday gift we gave grandma(:

sweet huh?? hahah

oh besides that,

so many people came today!

hahah

including those seldom seen cousins

one even brought his girlfriend!

so pretty!! (: her name's rachel if i'm not wrong.. (:

went vivo after with cousins

had fun too!! (:

what a happy day! =D

2007-12-20T01:05:00.000-08:00

uh oh..

felt really weird and not so good today.

experienced a few dizzy spells.

wonder if the cut i got today was the cause.

hmmm

there was rubor, tumor, calor, dolor and functio laesa

(by Celsus)

ehhh.. some macroscopic features indicating acute inflammation.

fpath??? lol

hope the outcome would be >> resolution

not scarring nor chronic inflammation.. (:

well well.

enough of science..

---

hmmm

i really dont like the feeling of being cheated.

someone lied to me.

and i'm not feeling good bout that.. =(

---

*sighss

hamsters' gone home, back to their owner.

they are SO cute can!

SO fat!! cannot stand! fat until so cute lah.. lol

will miss them (:

---

sister's back from genting

bought back quite alot of stuff including food!! (: (:

---

oh and..

went bugis with aili and gracecia

then off to meet my mom and aunt.

oh! tmr's grandma's birthday!

hmm or rather today since it's already after 12. yup.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)

may this day be an enjoyable and delightful one!!

---

hmmm. alright shall end it off here.

2007-12-19T01:01:00.000-08:00

hohoho

well well..

let's talk bout today.. =)

hmmm.. went singing with mom, sis and him.

ehh.. i didnt really sang well

cos of all those phlegmy phlegmy irritating stuff in the throat

sickening can!!

arghh. nvm

i had a great day though.

it's been so long since i last sang into the mike. hahah

hmmm..

after which he went off first

mom, sis and i headed for pp

walked around and settled down for dinner..

pictures pictures!! =D

steamboat for dinner!!

quite a mess eh?? hahah

that's mom! she looked so serious when it comes to food. lol

that's sis! emo emo GOTCHA!!

that's me! random random. ugly sia =(

taken in the cab of my lil pretty sis by herself
and if anyone does notice, see who's right behind???

hahaha it's ME!! hahahah
like ghost sia.. LOL

alright alright.. that's all for today.. (:

tata!

2007-12-15T00:43:00.000-08:00

hohoho

term tests are finally over!!!

well well..

happy happy(:

hmmm dont think i'll fare well for all

but hope i do pass 'em all..

hahah

christmas's coming!!!

presents presents,

wishes wishes,

lightings, decorations,

christmas tree,

christmas carols..

sweet sweet..

a time for all to come together

friends and loved ones (:

---

may all well beings be blessed this christmas!

ooo.. i wanna watch golden compass and alvin and the chipmunks!!

hahahha(:

---

hmmm

gosh gosh

i actually forgot about it..

i'm sorry k!!

didnt mean to.

sorry sorry.

feeling quite bad still..

2007-12-05T00:26:00.000-08:00

arghh just what the hell is wrong again

how come i never once knew

always like that sia

ahhh whatever lah.

sian lah so many things so fan

arghhh

---

sometimes i wonder. does anyone just care about it at all?

fine nobody cares so why should i?

utter nonsense.

just freak off.

2007-11-25T22:45:00.000-08:00

watch ENCHANTED!!

it's nice!! =D

sia lah

i'm feeling so down so down..

all because of those shitty stupid quizzes.

arghhh

2007-11-25T01:46:00.000-08:00

how i wish i could share the burden

how i wish i could give happiness

how i wish i could take away all troubles and sadness

how i wish to give a hug

how i wish to give comfort

how i wish what the fortune teller said was untrue

if it's true

how i wish i could exchange mine for hers

that she can go to her 50s, 60s, 70s and on and on to a hundred

if one could wish upon a star

can i wish upon a thousand or even a million stars?

i'd rather all to befall on me

she's the best ever

i love her

i wont want her to leave

to part is the last thing i would ever want

this day will come i know

but let it come far later please

---

i wish

2007-11-18T21:02:00.000-08:00

hmmm.. it doesn't really turned out better.

for once i thought it might be a good thing.

well well.. forget it.

nonsense only..

just freak off.

---

SIAN

every week got quiz sia!

damn!

i'm freaking hating this.

and i'm freaking starting to regret my choice.

why had i in the first place chose biotechnology??!!

arghhh

---

i'm not ok.

freakingly not.

2007-11-17T02:50:00.000-08:00

today's ccn day!

hmmm or rather ytd was ccn day.

cos it's way past twelve now. lol

hmmm.. our care group sold fishes!!

little profit though.

but doesnt matter so as long as we tried our best.

help charity ma. (:

wheee..

i received rose! lol

wheee..

i ate gracecia's bday cake!

wheee..

i bought two balloons!!

wheee..

i saw friends i seldom see in sch despite the fact that tp is so small..

hahaha

happy happy(:

oh and wheee..

my com's finally back to a good state!

wheee wheee wheee(: (:

oh went to work too...

hahah that was really lame but i enjoyed it. (:

tired tired tired

oh nonono

quiz and more quizzes again..

SIAN

i wanna buy the real rubick's cube!

sick of mine.. -.-

spoil alr...

hahah

alrights. it's sleeping time!

2007-11-09T10:13:00.000-08:00

wah sian..

damn pek chek..

just the moments before i'm turning in so many things happened.

nothing's going my way.

perhaps i should just sleep soon.

before any more unwanted things happen.

---

there's luo zhi siang, show's autograph session @bugis today!

and guess what?? i didnt know until i went there.

my sis, gary and myself went for it.

but the crowd was simply too crowded.

i couldnt really see his face.

so.. we headed home after awhile.

as soon as we reached home, my mum came home.

my sis said she hadnt have enough look of xiao zhu.

my mum wanted to see him too,

so.. the three of us went ahead to bugis. again. yep, again.

fortunately he was still there, busy signing.

well well. at the end of the day,

we managed to catch a glimpse of him.

quite up close just before us as he walked past off.

happy happy (:

at least i got to see him..

handsome handsome.

but standing at a height lower than i expected. hmm

hahah

but still handsome la.

he's quite fair btw.

when i thought he was rather tanned.

lol

---

alrights. there's comm serv tmr.

got to wake up darn early.

turning in liao. night!

---

-END-

2007-11-08T08:29:00.000-08:00

yeah!! i know how to do the rubick's cube alr!!

woohoo!

well well.. the last layer not from alden though.

from von! and the manual!! nic helped too.. hahah

went liwei's house to give her a belated birthday surprise today..

hourly surprises!! hahahah

alright, all the rainbow and clouds and all..

hahah

hope you enjoyed the day liwei! (:

paiseh were you kind of disappointed instead??

lol cos by right you're supposed to go out with nic..

lol

awwhh.. my dad's leaving for indonesia tmr.

will miss him.. sobs

five days he'll be away sia.. :(

alrights.

got to do my stuff alr.

that's all for today.

~quite a disappointing day though~

---

-END-

2007-11-07T08:59:00.000-08:00

and so this was before, :l and after, :D

implying??

well well. nvm nvm.

shant read too much into it.

though it's kinda tough

it's normal ya khim!

well.. i do very much hope so

thus, much unhappiness shall be voided. (:

(: > one that i force myself to

it's liwei's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!

18th!!! woohoo, you're legal!

hahahah

---

oh no.. i'm starting to cough!

sharks.. i hate this.

blocked nose is bad enough..

arghh :(

hmmm.. been on the rubick's cube recently.

bought one at 5bucks. lol

fake one of cos. hahah

i'm left with the last layer to deal with!

soon i shall be an expert in it!

hahahahahah

well well.. whatever.. hahah

me and my crazy thinkings.

alright.. gtg.

---

-END-

2007-11-04T22:35:00.000-08:00

oh my.. i'm like sick since friday..

throat first, as always.. standard. :(

then the running nose.

and that's the most dreaded part of everything.

cos from the nose tha pain spreads in all directions.

north>> the temple, the head

east and west>> the cheeks

and south>> the jaw, the teeth

my god!!

i couldnt sleep for like almost the whole night!!

my cheeks hurt like hell, toothache too!!

oh my. that was really terrible.

thank god i've got my sis still awake.

she brought me out of bed to have panadol.

after awhile. i managed to fall asleep.

it was ard 4 plus then.. :(

i'm dead man

there's tut quiz tmr.

and i'm not done like half of it yet.

gosh.. think i'm gonna fail.

alright, shant stay for long.

got to go back to the notes.

haix

2007-10-29T23:40:00.000-07:00

sigh!! sian sian sian..

vexed vexed vexed ah!

haix. nvm.

hope things will get better soon.

---

it seems to be ebbing.

unlike back then.

perhaps that's too much of a thought.

but it's definitely not the same anymore. i know.

sian. i'm so broke. haix.

want to buy things but no money! sian.. :(

---

haix haix haix

ok i shall stop whining.

no point. money wont come this way. haix

omg i feel so bad this morning.

ahh.. nvm. haix

what a bad day.

2007-10-28T01:10:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. well had fun today..

went wild wild wet.

hmm.. six of us went there first,

jh, lw, nic, ald, aar, and myself.

-.- five of them lived around the same vicinity except me.

and all of them wore black! hahaha

i wore pink. so weird.

but it's ok, haha quite interesting.

hmmm.. went to play ooh lah lah.

went like so many times but we never took any decent photo!

-.-ll

hahaha

then three others joined in,

des, wil and jap.

so altogether, nine went www.

went there like from 10plus to 5!

sunburnt like hell.. everybody's so red! lol

after which we headed for dinner.

well.. ald, jap and des didnt join in.

so the remaining six of us went ahead.

met up with juan and aili.

went marina for steamboat.

celebrated wil's bday a day in advance.

happy birthday!

ok. so overall, i kinda enjoyed the day. (:

---

hmmm.. dont read too much into it ya.

it's really nothing.

just a friend is him.

even with nothing, you'll still be the one(:

so dont think too much ya.

and i'd really love to see you back there in action.

dont lose your passion pls.

i wont want to see you regret in future ya.

i'm alr regretting it,

for not being persistent in my passion.

i dont wish to see myself in you.

do reconsider ya.

---

alright. got to go.

nights ppl.

2007-10-27T01:10:00.000-07:00

ARGH.....!!!!!!

just what the hell is going on!!!

hell i really hate this.

i tend to lose my temper darn easily these days.

cant control it. sharks

i'm really sorry to those out there whom i've been treating

coldly or raised my voice at.

i'm really sorry.

but i'm just so frustrated.

my appearance, my dumbness, my retardness, stupidity,

me being so indecisive, so dull and boring.

argh. i really hate myself.

think i'm really undergoing some minor depression.

soon it'll worsen.

something's really wrong with me.

been thinking alot.

fretting and worrying things that i dont really know either.

i really have no idea what i'm fretting and worrying abt.

sigh..

there's really nothing i can think of that's a happy thing.

my head aching again.

something just happened again.

mum and sisters rushed over.

just what the hell is wrong with everything.

nothing seems to be going well for me, family.

='(

today's a bad day.

yup. my com's up. but not totally well.

got naggings from mum, sis... for not getting it done at once.

i know nothing bout com.

ya ok it's my fault.

my dumbness once more.

didnt know i'd have to tell them all problems the com's creating.

sis cant make it tmr for repair.

looks like i can only get it done like next week.

ok shall end.

been crying when i'm alone

yet not being able to cry out loud.

i dont want ppl to worry for me.

oh wait. does anyone care bout me? nvm

i'll have to put up a stupid happy nothing's going wrong face

upon facing them.

like what the hell.. it's really a torture.

2007-10-21T16:12:00.000-07:00

alright great. my com's @service currently..

so now, here i am, @kaiwen's house.

using the com.. hahah

check for my timetable actually.

well.. so i thought of posting as well.

it's been so long since i last updated.

hmm.. a month of work's over.

so now, it's back to school life again.

tmr's the start of school.

hohoho

i'm so happy with my new timetable

cos i got what i wanted for cds this time!

and that's freehand drawing!!

sounds cool huh.. lol

but it's like only once a week.

three hours for that once though.

somehow i yearned for more..

lol

cant help cos i really love drawing.

hahaha

hopefully it's all about drawing!

shall anticipate! (:

but one thing really bad about the timetable is that

we've got long breaks in btw.

and that's hated.

well well..

nvm then. shall see how we shall spend time on it. (:

so many things happened lately..

well.. shall not mention.

unhappy stuff.

*sighs*

been thinking alot lately.

family family family.

problems problems problems.

unhappiness unhappiness unhappiness.

whatever.

alright.. shall end here..

i'll post again when my com's ready. (:

2007-09-24T00:53:00.000-07:00

hoho

it's 24th!! seventh! hahah

sad-ed.. cannot spend it together.

sorry k..

hmmm... think i'm beginning to like this job.

it's all about using your brain,

your communication skills,

your cleverness,

your gift of gab..

hahahah

well well..

i'm not a pro yet though..

but hope i will soon be!

lol (:

ala.. i miss my friends, school..

hahah

kkays. gtg. nights!! (:

2007-09-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

i will and must stay strong.

"overcome the anger by non-anger;

overcome the wicked by goodness;

overcome the miser by generosity;

overcome the liar by truth."

"one is not wise

because one speaks too much.

he who is peaceable,

friendly and fearless is called wise."

"an evil deed is better left undone,

for such a deed torments one afterwards.

but a good deed is better done,

doing which one repents not later."

"so long as an evil deed has not ripened,

the fool thinks it as sweet as honey.

but when the evil deed ripens,

the fool comes to grief."

hmmm.. these were quoted from the book,

"Dhammapada- a practical guide to right living"

well well..

i shall not comment much,

for those who are aware,

are aware of themselves.

for those who practise evil deeds.

i believe in retribution.

they will reap what they sow.

they will get what they deserve.

time will show it all.

just watch it.

i believe everyone has an innate goodness.

be mindful and repent and one shall gain respect.

hoho.. cool.. i find myself so.....

hahaha nvm

it's just so cool reading such.

*enlightened!! *blinkblink*

hahah(:

2007-09-14T09:30:00.000-07:00

the lethargic me.

today's my second day of work.

so far so good i guess..

hope it remains like that for the rest of the days till sch starts.

hmmmmm...

quite tiring.. haha my legs are beginning to hurt.

from all the walking and standing.

but guess it's not a bad thing.

hahah

cos i'm working towards a skinnier me!

hahahahah

hope after these days i'll become visibly more acceptable.

hahah

shall anticipate this day to come. lol(:

okok.. got to turn in..

haix. a no life me. haha

2007-09-12T06:46:00.000-07:00

haixhaixhaixhaixhaix

well.. like what was expected,

my gpa dropped.

all results didnt met my expectations.

well except for aap.

i'm glad i passed with a C. (:

sian-ed..

nvm.nvm

shant dwell too much on that.

it'll just upset me.

just try harder next time ba.

hmmm.. spent like 60+ bucks today.

gosh..

there goes my hard-saved money.. -.-

but but..

i had a great time shopping today..

thanks aili! (:(:

hmmm.. hahah.

still cant really believe i actually spent around 10+bucks on arcade.

hahah

well well.. i had fun though. (:

alright. guess thats all for today.

well.. one more thing to add on.

>> it aint my lucky day today either..

but it's ok.

i believe all will be well soon. (:(:

tata(:

2007-09-10T23:45:00.000-07:00

alright.. i'm been such a fool, an idiot today.

somebody flew my aeroplane today.

what the hell sia.

i'm damn pissed can..

just how gullible can i get.

hell sia.

to think i trusted she'd come..

right.. i'll see what's gonna happen this thurs.

she'd better be there in person.

hell.

damn pissed can..

nvm.nvm.nvm.nvm

whatever k.

shall see..

waited for three hours in vain.

well well.

yeah. just one stupid incident and it got us both so unhappy.

my head was like splitting then..

ok after everything,

yeah.. i admit i was stupid.

i'm angry. not at anyone but myself.

i was too dumb, too gullible.

today aint my day.

woke up with aches all over,

went out, took the train that was in the wrong direction,

then i was tricked, then it got us all unhappy.

today just aint my day.

please!! just what the hell is going on?!!

i'm already having a bad headache these days.

and then all these happened.

just what's coming up more??

oh please.. i just crave for a simple life.

everyday as happy as ever.

is that too much?

damn

whatever la.

just drive me nuts and make my head explode la.

then will it all be over ok.

arghhh. damn angry!!

2007-09-10T02:07:00.000-07:00

wow.. it's been quite some time since my last post.

well well.. not busy though.

just that i was lazy too turn on the com. haha

hmmm.. alot of things happened at home lately.

but shant discuss it here. private(:

holidays holidays holidays.

in the meantime waiting for the results.

i'm not really anticipating it though

cos i know i'll fare badly.

hmmm....

saw JJ lin today at vivo.

autograph session.

knew it just today..

if i'd known earlier,

i'd have gotten aili and juan over for it.

it was already ending when i saw it.

haix.. what a pity.

both of them have got his new album.

they could have gotten his signature. ):

know they'd love it.. haix

hmmm...

watched evan's almighty.

it was a nice one. worth watching(:

"everybody dance now!"

hahah

kkay.. it's sleeping time.

nights!

oh and.. hope i'll be in my best of luck tmr! (:

2007-08-31T23:29:00.000-07:00

alright. today shall mark the end of the semestral exams.

i'm back. to the study-free state.

today's supposed to be a happy one

last paper.

but apparently it doesnt seemed to befall on me.

the paper was a really difficult one.

dampened my mood for the rest of the day.

sharks.

i just hope for a pass please.

was really upset and angry.

*sighs* well well..

haven really been sleeping well throughout the exam period.

slept a total of less than 20 in six days??

so tired.

hair loss problem faced.

due to stress? or some illness??

aint sure.

i cant let this go on.

i dont wanna become botak!

haix

anyway, today's juan's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again JUAN!! =D

hope you've enjoyed the day spent with all of us yea?

with loads of fun and laughters..(:

alright. so sleepy. got to turn in..

NIGHTS!!

2007-08-17T19:35:00.000-07:00

fallen deeper. harder.

so hard that it hurts.

so many things happened lately.

i'm not feeling any better.

there are certain things in which it's simply beyond my control.

not that i want it to turn out that way.

things just dont go well when one is down.

woke up in the morning.

quarrelings and rebuttals blasted my ears.

mum and sis raised their voices.

sisters ranted at each other.

quarreling over the most trivial matter.

i wont deny i'm involved too.

back in school.

school was fine cos i have my friends.

they never fail to cheer me up.

thanks ppl.

but that didnt last long.

i'm back to square one.

troubles at home.

troubles with school work.

and so on.

went to bedok carrying a headache.

had to buy my sis's stuff.

was lost in the midst of everything there.

i couldnt find my way.

sharper pain in my head.

found my way at last. got everything.

went home.

i need some peace.

peace in my mind, peace in my heart.

peace in my ears. just peace.

i'm afraid i cant hold on much longer.

and my head still hurts.

2007-08-16T18:15:00.000-07:00

damn.. darn sad.

bound to flunk my aap practical.

i knew how to do not more than five questions.

was really feeling low..

not really in the mood to do anyth.

and i'm darn stressed.

i know i had to study but i really dont feel like.

i'm really going crazy..

but i suppose none saw it through.

i'm really really not feeling good.

='(

drown in tears

if only anyone could understand.

2007-08-16T01:31:00.000-07:00

aiyo aiyo aiyo

die die die.

less than ten days to exams!!

and i haven started revision!!

oh no oh no.

how how how..

cham cham cham..

jialat jialat jialat.

haix haix haix

stress stress stress!

can die sia..

just kill me man!

arghh.

-.-

oh btw.. took a few photos lately.

maybe not a few..

hahah.

many..

no time to upload.. lol

next day when i'm free perhaps..

but well.. my sis, cheng has actually uploaded it in her blog alr..

check it out there then!!

2007-08-12T23:29:00.000-07:00

ok.. it's raining out there super heavily now.

fortunately i'm home alr.

sian. exams are like dunno how many days away.

and i've yet touched my notes.

i shall see how i die then.

haix

lack of discipline i guess.

tend to get distracted easily..

hmmm.. there's sth i've been pondering about lately.

well.. whatever it is.

i hope i didnt got it spot on or whatever.

shall anticipate.

hmmm.. aiyo.. so many things happened lately.

and it seems to be getting out of hand somehow..

it's quite bad to see it becomes like that.

hmmm..

kk.. shall end here.

take care ppl.

i'm going to be quite busy lately.

guess i'll not post until the exams are officially over.

well maybe i will still. lol

depends. hahaha

okok.. gtg bye!! =)

i hope it aint is a lie. white lie or whatever color it is

2007-08-08T23:30:00.000-07:00

woke up with a pair of swollen eyes this morning.

had to put on specs instead for school.

anyway, thanks for the consolation ytd night, sisters.

ytd was the worst day ever.

dirtied my favourite top,

spoilt my favourite sippers,

computer kena virus cos i clicked open a file a friend sent.

i was such a stupid idiot dumb gullible freak.

people send and i just open it w/o even asking what's that beforehand.

what's worse? i might have even got other people into trouble.

i'm really sorry yar.

i was right.

indeed one day my downfall would be due to my stupidity.

can i be a lil smarter for goodness sake??!

i dont ask for more, just a lil smarter will do.

i dont and cant blame anyone.

i can only blame myself.

alright. that was ytd.

nothing went really well today either.

no tickets for zhang dong liang's concert.

didnt went out with my friends.

i chose to be alone for the rest of the day instead.

roamed around, shopped around.

i dont suppose this inane me here deserves to be paid attention to.

alright, enough said.

tmr's the nation's birthday.

happy birthday singapore

i really dun uds why it's so coincidental. arghh

i dont think i can hold on much longer.

i cant take it anymore!! grrr

2007-08-07T01:50:00.000-07:00

pictures pictures before i go to sleep! =)

nights!!

2007-08-07T01:30:00.000-07:00

hohoho.. oh.. it's been quite some time since i last blogged.

hahah

hmmm.. nothing much happened lately.

life's as usual..

oh dear.. exams are round the corner..

in three weeks' time.

gotta start revision soon..

hmmm.. but can i?? lol

i dont think i have that much of a disipline. haha

well well.. will try though..

hmmm.. to those who are experiencing bad stuff lately,

dont be too affected yar.. get on with life! heck care them! =)

ohh.. national day's coming!

hmmm.. should we get all red and white on that day?? haha

meant the clothings. lol

shall suggest. lol

kk gotta turn in soon.

lesson's early tmr.

nights!! =)

2007-08-03T09:43:00.001-07:00

wah sian..

i cant bring myself to be angry.

hell.. think i'm really weird.

like when ppl says you're fat or sth?

and keeps saying that?

wont be happy right?

i was really unhappy and rather pissed.

but i just cant show it on my face. argh..

what a weirdo am i.

and then.. i reached home showing attitudes to others.

like mum. and perhaps dad.

i dunno why.

think they should have realised it too.

gosh.. i hate myself.

mood swings?? man.. hate it.

alright. i bring nothing but trouble.

sian.

a good-for-nothing weirdo.

haix

2007-08-01T00:15:00.000-07:00

ok.. i really need to relieve myself..

definitely not referring to the toilet part.

here's feeling so bottled up.

by what i dunno.. just feel so "filled" inside me.

feel like letting it all out..

hmmm.. perhaps walking by the beach would help a little..

hmm.. might consider.. yup yup

oh.. speaking bout it.. hmm..

hahaha!

nvm. lol

some things i should be angry at but i'm not.

not a nice thing though

but yet i'm kinda ridiculed at..

(ahh.. yes.. you.. if you're reading this. haha)

but it's ok la.. it doesnt really affect me alot.

hmmm. ok i dunno what is it again.

perhaps it's me.

haix

ok shall not move on. else ppl will say i'm depressed or what again.

lol

i'm not lah really. hahah

dont think depression will ever occur to me.

know why?

hahaha

cos i cheer up easily.

cheerful person mah.. cant help.

it's an inborn thingy. it's in the genes.. LOL!!

alright. craps.. haha

cheer up! to those who are unhappy and

get well soon! for those who are ill =)

2007-07-29T12:02:00.000-07:00

perhaps that's true.

no one uds, not even myself.

i'm not being of any help at all.

i cant even help myself let alone others.

i'm lost. i dunno what to do.

seems like i'm bringing more problems than being of any help.

studies is important, this i know.

but there are also other things that are as impt.

a life revolving around studying is not i want.

i dont like studying. but who knows.

why do all think i like it just becos they always see me sitting there studying.

pics that make me smile? no thanks.

no point. its life span will be short.

alright. maybe i should go back to my books now.

bury myself in them.

till i go gaga one day.

then i'd be in a world of my own.

if only..

i'm not being emo. i dont even know what i want.

what i wrote.

my hands did it. i'm not controlling it. my brain did.

my brain? sure it's mine?

open it up and verify then. see if it has my name on it.

alright. thats not funny. i really dunno what i'm typing now.

shall stop then.. before it goes on and on and on and on...

-numbed

2007-07-28T02:45:00.000-07:00

alright people, i'm back.. lol

my com is finally working..

well. for now..

aint sure if it's going to work for tmr and the subsequent days as well.

well.. i do hope so.. lol

no com = no life. haha

hmm.. actually i'm pretty disappointed too.

but aint sure if we're on the same line.

hmm. apologies..

please see a doctor.

no matter what.

hope it doesnt deteriorates.

get well soon yar..

hmmm. a burden i see myself as.

adding on to all that are faced now.

please hang on.

nothing is impossible as the saying goes.

i'm getting increasingly demoralized.

results are not getting any better.

they are all heading downstream instead.

one after another it got worse.

hell.

just what the hell is wrong with me.

if this continues,

it wont be surprising if i were to take the supp paper.

kind of expected.

not that i desire though. who would?

demoralized.

losing all motivation.

2007-07-19T02:55:00.000-07:00

alright great..

i just finished adding a few more slides to my part in mgen ppt.

and it took me the whole night to do it.

haha.

well well. actually i took breaks in between la. lol

ate supper, watched an episode of a show on youtube..

but doesnt matter.

no school tmr anyway.

haha!

hmmm.. ok so many things to do..

so many people are under so much stress.

so many people feel like giving up alr.

some even thought of dying.

(you know who you are)

dont be silly.

thats not going to help solve any problem.

it'll just bring more problems.

thats just an attempt to escape.

how can?

one must be brave to brave through the stormy seas.

eventually, the storm will cease.

everything will be fine.

hahaha

ok i dunno what the hell i'm talking alr.

loads of craps.

welll. guess i'm getting sleepy.

yawns*

hmmm. am looking forward to tmr.

hope it is for the better.

at least one of my problems will be solved.

heehee

alrights. i'm off to bed.

nightie night night!! =)

2007-07-18T02:23:00.000-07:00

hmm.. abit weird.

somehow i see similarities.

hmmm.. coincidence perhaps? or not? hmm..

whatever. nvm..

hahah.

ahhhh.. it's so late now alr.

tmr's lesson at 9!

have to wake up at 7!

haix

oh btw, watched Harry Potter

hmmm. not very nice..

hahah

but still ok la. watchable. lol

oh and.. yay.. i got my adidas watch repaired!

just love it so much. =)

kk. off to bed time! nights!

2007-07-14T19:54:00.000-07:00

ahhhh.

been having a splitting headache since i woke up.

it still hurts like hell now.

it's really splitting my head into half already.

ahhhh.

it didnt really got any better after a three hours nap.

ahh.

hope it gets well soon.

cant afford to fall sick again at this point of time.

2007-07-14T11:28:00.000-07:00

WAH!! ARGHHHH!!

DAMN ANGRY AH!!!!!

stupid idiot school..

send me warning letter.

i submitted my mc ok!!

and it wrote there for 2 days! mind you!

idiot.. only take into account for one day.

must be cock eyed ah you all.

damn. anyhow sia..

fuck

damn angry now..

if it's confirmed that the mc wrote two days

i swear i'll make hell out of you ppl

idiots.

sorry readers. pardon my strong usage of words.

but i'm really angry now.

sorry

2007-07-14T01:35:00.000-07:00

no. i wont be the least bit happy.

sorry for the unhappiness caused.

perhaps that should apply more to me..

sorry. i didnt meant to have made those happen.

perhaps i wasnt feeling at all right then.

cos of so many things that happened lately.

school work, family and stuff.

i'm really sorry.

it came down just so uncontrollably.

tried to hold it back though.

i can understand.

can tell you were feeling rather low.

yet i..

sorry. i totally agree that i'm blur.

dumb as well. i'm really sorry.

2007-07-11T00:31:00.000-07:00

haix. die die. been so blur lately.

kept fogetting my medicine.

and like today, sian

promised juan to bring color pencils.

but forgot.

went to aap lec.

was late.

went in, took out my notes, pencil box..

"eh?!! where's my pencil box??!!"

turned out i forgot to bring.

no pens, no pencils.

it was then that i realise,

i cant live lec w/o my pencil box.

missed my pens and pencils so much.

lol

also another thing.

i didnt know the deadline of the sending of info was actually today instead of ytd.

so.. i rushed it through ytd and slept late.

and guess what?

i slept through almost the whole of lec.

haix

how can i be soooo blur??

wah. like that cannot ah. haix

how how?

haix

2007-07-09T23:04:00.000-07:00

ok. again it is.

had a bad feeling today.

kept having the feeling that something's gonna happen.

and it did.

kept hoping things will go smoothly today.

but in the end.

haix.

i said someth wrong.

it's my bad.

my fault.

sorry!

gosh.

just what is wrong these few days.

haix.

so fed up these few days alr.

cos of sch work.

now....

haix.

my bad my bad.

just saw two persons using net to catch not sure a dog or cat.

dunno they're doing it for good deeds or bad stuff.

haix.

no mood to continue alr.

shall end.

can you just take me away? up there?

2007-07-08T03:38:00.000-07:00

ahhh. goodness. now i feel so bad.

i didnt mean to make things seem like what it is now.

sorry sorry.

dont worry, things wont be made difficult.

i'm truly sorry.

i'm not trying to stop anything.

so please be as usual.

like how it has been all the while. =)

sorry if it has inflicted trouble or disturbance in you two.

sorry sorry.

oh and. happy birthday cheng! =D

2007-07-05T22:15:00.000-07:00

alright. guess it's all my fault today.

sorry.

should have thought twice or thrice before doing anyth.

note taken.

sorry.

anw. transformers is nice.

worth watching.

it's not easy. i'm still learning. hard

but i'm starting to feel tired.

or perhaps i already am.

numbed

2007-07-04T00:54:00.000-07:00

school ended at 12plus today.

slept at 3 the night before.

stayed up to finish studying urinary system.

in the end?

it was not tested for the quiz.

tested on integument instead.

sleeping time wasted. sian

ended up dozing off during lec.

the videos were so cool! haha

castration of animals! lol

ok went to play arcade with him at tm.

then he met up with his friends.

i met up with the same few for billiard.

plus wilson. lol

p6 classmates!

billiard was cool. hahah

then mac for dinner.

joking ard with the ma tong song by andy lau.

my dear toilet bowl! hahaha

2007-07-01T21:18:00.000-07:00

hahah. went pool with jeremy and jiahui and liying.

hmmm.. liying didnt play though.

haha. sian. played so many rounds.

only managed to win once.

the last round. lol

ok la. it's been quite long since i played.

so it's not that bad after all. lol

then went to pp to acc him for dinner.

hmmm. eveything went fine.

sunshine after rain.

arhh.. i wan to attend NDP this year!

at marina bay!!

so cool can! lol

2007-06-30T01:15:00.000-07:00

angry angry angry! argh!!

arghh!!

idiot idiot idiot!

2007-06-30T01:00:00.000-07:00

GM's arts night, tapestry!

hmmm.. it was a good one.

the drama was good.

improvement seen! keep it up!

haha

hmmm.. first dance performance was rather disappointing.

was rather messy.

but was amazed and happy for my juniors at the second performance.

the SYF piece. good one! much much neater.

done us seniors proud! hahah

met up with quite a number of my ex classmates.

kind of sat tgt.

just that the both of us were sitting behind them. lol

after it ended, both him and myself went orchard for some night shoping.

but bad weather. it rained.

and there were SO many people.

hitting pain into my head.

not long we headed home.

he was acting weirdly.

was quiet.

sth was wrong. but i have no idea. =(

it upsets me.

tears.

2007-06-28T08:48:00.000-07:00

tinge of pain. slight bleed.

that's what one gets when the truth is known.

and when that's what you wouldnt wish for.

saw it. knew it. confirmed it.

all understood.

hmmm..

well well..

2007-06-28T08:10:00.000-07:00

sometimes i was wondering, was it really gone.

there're still photos in there, till now.

a candid one taken.

when was it taken? i've got no idea.

but the fact is. it's still there.

for memory? for reminisce?

hahah

i wont know.

aint my say.

read the past posts out of boredom.

discovery.

could it really happen in such a short period of time?

a tool perhaps?

hmmm..

am i thinking too much?

2007-06-26T08:58:00.000-07:00

alright. time to blog again.

not in the best condition though.

great. i'm sick.

everywhere aches. dying of pain.

why this torment.

went to see the doc.

crazy. i was prescribed 7 types of medicines.

5 of which are tablets, 2 syrups.

know what? i'm weakest at swallowing tablets

i have always hated medicines.

sharks.

small ones are alright.

but not as big as panadol type or capsules.

kills me to force them down my throat.

hell.

what to do. no choice. sick what.

well sometimes i really think if anybody cared at all.

well.. anw. shant continue.

day of pain, sadness, disappointed, shall all be today.

alright. got to face those stupid medicines again.

hell. bye everyone.

happy birthday pei ying!!

oh btw. i really would like to thank and appreciate my mum

for taking care of me. my dad as well.

2007-06-23T01:16:00.000-07:00

someone must be darn happy now.

will get to see 'ahem again like tmr?

fine lor. good for you..

hmmm.

went kbox with him, and his friends - jing yong and kelly today.

kelly can sing real well. envy envy. (:

she's so cute and petite also.. haha

glad knowing her anyway. (:

went vivo after which.

for the past three days i've been hanging out at vivo. lol

hmmm. myself and him were jing yong's 'models' there.

haha. took photographs for some competition thingy.

hmmm. then i was so happy.

know why?

haha.

rmb i mentioned i was at vivo for the past 3 days?

haha. went with Mo's on the first day.

went to turn that machine thingy for some figurine key chains.

not me. but my friends. haha.

i pity juan cos she's so unlucky.

couldnt get what she wanted after so many tries.

kept getting the same one. lol

so i decided to help her out.

went vivo the next day.

thought of trying my luck.

but the machine was replaced with sth else.

it wasnt there.

went vivo today.

checked out if the machine reappeared.

and bingo! it was there again!

haha

so i decided to try turning it.

got the blue one for the first try.

then tried again and got the pink one for the second try.

was abt to give up but

decided to do it for one last try and guess what???

yep i got it! it was enemy!

the one that juan wanted badly!!

haha

so happy i was able to help.

hahah

alright that shall mark the end of my post today. gtg. (:

2007-06-18T09:13:00.000-07:00

yucks. hate it. i'm broke. sian.. why??!!

why am i soooo broke at this point of time! damn. argh.

cant do anything without money siah! sian!

2007-06-16T02:21:00.000-07:00

hahah.. sorry sorry. was busy lately.

so didnt update.

hmmm.. well.. been watching vcd these days till like ard 3plus 4am

hahah. finished watching everyth ytd finally.

hmm.. next week's his birthday. hmm

i need some ideas.. lol

where can we go??

what can we do??

lol

can anybody suggest sth??

cos i really have no idea what to do.

i'm a bad planner you see. lol

help me out please.....

thanks!! =D

2007-06-11T23:29:00.000-07:00

ok. great.. i'm finally free to blog.

term tests are finally over.

dont think i did well.

whatever. it's ok. it's over. so shant talk bout it.

hmm. went jogging in the morning today.

at bedok reservoir, with him.

ran 2km. ahh. that was lousy.

but it's ok. at least i ran 2km non-stop.

was really angry. but shant talk abt it.

ate breakfast. then home.

he went out with his friends after that.

i went out with youngest sis and tessa.

we went singing.

cool. three hours str..

had fun.

alright. nothing more to say.

target: slim down!! save money!!

2007-06-01T10:15:00.000-07:00

something unhappy happened yesterday..

glad i did something right today.

at least it pushes the unhappiness in us away.

ended sch at around 4 plus today.

went over to gary's place to visit him.

he's sick.

but am glad he got better.

compared to the past few days.

didnt stay there for long..

cos i gotta rush home as i'm going out with cheng and shu hui.

that stupid dumb dumb insisted on sending me home despite being sick.

so silly. silly like anything. lol

well.. then the three of us girls went to bugis.

thought there was S.H.E's autograph session.

but was duped.

not autograph session!

it's some exchanging of their new cover album stuff.

aint very sure what was going on.

so.. in the end, we went to shop around..

bought nothing. lol

no money.

oh. maybe i did spent a lil.

haha. on food!

what a glutton am i.

lol

kk.. next mon's the first paper of term test.

gotta study!! but shall start tmr. lol

tired alr. gotta turn in soon.

nights! (:

2007-05-31T09:05:00.000-07:00

go to hell man. i'm referring to myself. hell.. arghhh

2007-05-30T10:55:00.000-07:00

here are some of the recent photos taken. (:

with nephew, kyo!

and niroga(not sure if the spelling's right lol)!

ahh.. they are SO cute!!

2007-05-30T10:32:00.000-07:00

wah!! now then i realised i so long never post alr ah!!! LOL

aiyo.. term test next week ah!

and i havent started revision.

can prepare to die already i guess..

haix.

poor dumb dumb's sick..

poor thing poor thing.

hope he gets well soon..

alright. it's getting late already.

gotta turn in soon.

nights people! =)

2007-05-22T09:24:00.000-07:00

gosh. think i might just break down at any point of time.

the school wants my life.

so many things to do,

yet so little time.

i dunno how long i can still take this.

i'm going crazy.

everything's like so messed up.

my results for the quizzes were bad.

and i mean BAD!

failed a few subjects alr so far.

did really badly for aap.

just had aap lec quiz today.

doubt i can do well either.

just hope i can get a pass for it and i'd be contented.

really hate those who keep saying they didnt study,

dunno anything but in the end they know and did well.

damn. i cant let this go on.

i must do well for my term test

which is like only two weeks away.

i must at least maintain my gpa at 3.

hope all things will turn out for the better soon.

haix

2007-05-19T00:31:00.000-07:00

some pictures taken on my birthday! (:

loves. (:

2007-05-18T09:53:00.000-07:00

alright. let me share how i spent my 18th bday.

haha

ok.. hmmm. went to sch since it falls on a sch day.

cat, shan ru, estee and fidi sang a really loud birthday song for me.

making sure those walking around us hear that.

lol. thanks alot girls!

hmm.. shook hands with those wished me. lol

ended lesson at about 11 plus.

met up with gary.

he bought flowers for me. three roses!

but it was quite ps. lol

cos we walked ard in sch,

ard the sch's vicinity

and out carrying that bouquet of flowers.

felt eyes falling upon the both of us due to those roses in my hands.

but was really happy.

he gave me a present too.

and it's really very sweet of him. love it! (:

we went for a game of bowling first after sch. then lunched.

after which, we took neoprints.haha

and we headed back to sch.

i was kinda tricked by him to head back to sch.

there was a surprise for me.

my friends planned it. he was the accomplice. lol

it was really a nice surprise.

cos initially i thought my friends would just wished me and thats it.

was really touched and happy when they planned this.

thanks! (:

then gary and i went out again.

for a cable car ride to sentosa.

and we watched songs of the sea.

the effects and all were splendid, astonishing.

except that the story line was urm.

kinda boring. but it's still worth a watch. (:

went dian xiao er to have dinner after that.

the roasted duck's damn nice!

must try! haha

then we headed home.

yup. and that was how i spent the day.

was tired yet enjoyed it. (:

i hereby thank all who've given me birthday presents.

and not forgetting all those who wrote comments for me on friendster,

those who wished me by person

and those who smsed me too. thanks! (:

2007-05-16T10:07:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me..

happy birthday to ME!!

i'm eighteen! aiyo.. old already. haix

time really flies.

before i knew it, i'm already 18!

i've been existing here on earth for 18 years alr!

another few more years, i'll be 21, then 40, then maybe 60 and above.

wow. then i'll die eventually.

well.. cant skip that. everyone will have to leave one day.

it's just matter of time.

haix

old le old le.

anyway, good news! i can blog alr!!

hahahaha!

17th of may 2007

2007-05-09T10:53:00.000-07:00

went for modern dance audition today.

gosh. think i kinda screwed it up.

argh.. dont think i'll get in. sian.

but i really wanna get in!!

sian. and know what?? i can only get to know the results next wednesday.

for one week i'd have to wait. sian!

there's still one more audition to go and that is the hip hop one.

but honestly speaking, i'm more interested in modern.

haix. but i screwed it up. sharks.

ok. my lesson starts at 12 tmr. that explains why at this time i'm still blogging. lol it's almost 2 right now. lol

kk. thats all for today i guess. (: